19/09/2015
I'm not too sure about uploading daily pictures anymore. I still take pictures for me to have, but they've reached a stage of not really looking any different on a day-to-day basis. Instead, I was thinking of uploading pictures every 2-3 days. It made more sense to me, and meant I wouldn't have to spend as much time getting the pictures onto my laptop.
I was working yesterday, and I actually remember this as being a really tough day for me. It just seemed that my nails had made no improvement, and they seemed really ugly to me. They were really dirty and fragile looking after my shift at work and I had to clean them with a nail brush before taking a picture of them because they were a state. I really just felt hopeless about my nails yesterday.
In my mind I can no longer imagine having long nails. I can't imagine getting to the stage of being able to wear nice nail polish, because my nails are so short right now. I've done this before and it doesn't take a genius to know that nails don't suddenly grow long as soon as we stop biting them. But I found pictures of the last time I stopped biting my nails and I was shocked. I didn't even realise how serious I had been about it. I don't remember taking daily photos and stressing over how long my nails had gotten, but I did take pictures, and I didn't do too badly.
After seeing these on my phone I was shocked. And I couldn't help but imagine how long my nails would've been by now if I hadn't have failed and started biting them again. That was three months ago and here I am with short and weak nails. I just started feeling like a failure and that was hard.
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