I had seen so many nice pictures of matte nails on instagram and pinterest, so decided to get some for myself. I got really excited when it came today but I only tried it out on one nail. I know from experience that during early stages of growing my nails it's better to take care of them by rubbing all the crap into them and massaging them and figured that if I painted them then they'd miss out on it and get damaged by the nail polish. Devastating. I know it'll look nicer on long nails though, and until my nails have reached the tips of my fingers then I don't want to wear rings or nail polish.
I don't know how long it'll take for my nails to reach that length, maybe in a month I can wear it, maybe it's more. I don't know at this stage. But it's nice having some motivation and something to look forward to. I've started creeping all these lovely nail designs on instagram and wishing I could do them. So when I'm able to paint my nails and have them look nice (rather than scruffy, which is how they would look if I painted them now) I can go ahead and try out my different nail polish. I've needed black nail polish for yonks but because I bit my nails I never really painted them. I just ended up picking it off and it came off really quickly.
I remember a few months ago (while I worked in a different shop) I painted my nails for work and was amazed at how long nail polish could last when I used a base coat, top coat and most importantly, when I kept my hands away from my mouth. It was just so much nicer to wear and it didn't chip for a while, which was nice. It's almost pathetic how many times I've tried to stop biting my nails when I think about it haha
I stopped in January when I went through a pretty emotionally intense time when things ended for definite with the most amazing guy. I guess I just wanted to show myself that he may be able to change, but he wasn't the only one who could. I wanted to grow my nails and exercise more, or do some meditation and yoga. I failed completely. Not that I've ever gotten to see him again, so I suppose it was a private defeat for me!
I also stopped because my boyfriend (who I started dating after the guy mentioned above btw) said asked me to rub my hands up his back while we were cuddling - nothing iffy don't worry, and he was like "use your nails" and I was like...well damn cuz I don't have any! I kept that up until I was able to wear nail polish but then I started biting again while I was in Amsterdam with my (now ex-) best friend and another close friend.
It's like an emotional rollercoaster with my nails!
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